The beginning of a horrying journey

Based on my title, a lot of you will be thinking what journey am I talking about? Those who have worked here before will know what I'm exactly talking about.
I'm talking about the new posting I've started, Paediatrics.

Some of you will be thinking, alarr, paeds je pun. Rilek la brader.

Sorry bro, it's not the same here.

I've been hearing about the malignancy and the chronicity of the department since I've entered the hospital. I was never this scared in my life. You can feel the negative vibe by just taking the first step.

Imagine getting scolded, nagged, and shouted at all the time. They don't speak to you. They shout at you. They see you as pesticides. As they were never a HO before. Like they became an MO right after birth.

If I did something wrong, something stupid, scold me all you want. I did the mistake what, I'll accept it la. But nope, when you ask something or even present the case also marah. When ask also kene marah, when you don't ask also kene marah with the statement, "Wahhhh, you so clever isit? No need to ask your senior and MO before doing something?" When asked, "You so stupid meh? This also need to ask me ah? Study so long for what?"

You ended up being so demotivated at the end of the day that you can't work anymore. You can't brain the stupidity of the words. I agree la ah, you wanna be hard on us so that one day we can stand on ourselves and can make decisions. But not this way thou. This is not being hard. This is being toxic. You create an environment so toxic, people are not happy to work. And guess what, you people are also malignant among each other. 

And guess what, this are the MOs that I'm talking about. The specialist, are ANGELS! They are super nice. You call us stupid, call us dumb and all but in front of the specialist, you call us "adik", and behave all nice. We can see how fake you are. 

It was day 1 and I was already demotivated to go the second day. 

So apparently, someone decided to complaint to the higher authorities on their behaviour before we entered the posting and they did took the matter seriously. They then called out the HOs and asked for some feedbacks. They then called these malignant ones out and gave them out feedback. 

Apparently they got a little chilled la but they began to be sarcastic. 

I started seeing that. You can hear them sometimes saying, where can scold them one, marah sikit, go complain. Tak boleh kene tegur. 

You tegur bila kita buat salah okay laa. You cakap pun macam marah orang. Tanye pun tak boleh, tak tanye pun tak boleh. 

At the end of the day, you get tired not because of the work, the busy schedule, but you get mentally tired dealing with the bullshit they throw at you. You get drained out, not physically, but mentally. 

I just hope that these 4 months ends fast.....